Not Spurned or Abhored

Journal Entry // April 2, 2022

Yet for all that, when they are in the land of their enemies, I will not spurn them, neither will I abhor them so as to destroy them utterly and break my covenant with them, for I am the LORD their God.

Leviticus 26:44 ESV

At times the hand of the Lord seems heavy upon my heart. There is this sense of judgement or punishment that comes from the weight of sin and burden that is being carried upon my shoulders. As the Lord leads me into these dry and arid times of wandering in the desert, it can feel as though the Lord has left me. That the burden of my sin has caused him to spurn me and forsake me. The enemy whispers in my ears that my sin is far too great for the Lord to ever draw near to me. The enemy continually tells me lies. He continues to deceive me. My enemy knows that I am in his land and this enemy wants to assert authority over me. My enemy wants me to curse God and turn from him. The enemy lies and tells me to unleash my burden by turning my back on the Lord, since the Lord has turned his back on me. These lies are powerful in their deception and speak to my heart through pride and self-righteousness.

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Motivated to Holiness

Journal Entry // March 29, 2022

And the LORD spoke to Moses, saying, [2] “Speak to all the congregation of the people of Israel and say to them, You shall be holy, for I the LORD your God am holy.

Leviticus 19:1-2 ESV

“I am the Lord your God.” Over and over, again and again this is the phrase that God ends his call to be faithful and obedient to his laws and commandments. I feel like I am continually looking for the right motivation or the proper desire to be obedient. I want to dig deep within myself and stir up faithfulness and obedience. It’s like I am working to convince myself that being obedient to the laws and commandments of God is the right and proper thing to do. I miss the simple reasoning of my Father, “I am the Lord your God.”

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