the mystery hidden for ages and generations but now revealed to his saints. To them God chose to make known how great among the Gentiles are the riches of the glory of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
Colossians 1:26-27 ESV
The glorious mystery: ‘Christ in you’. This is still something that I truly don’t fully understand. Not just the mechanics of how Christ can be in me, but the implications of Christ being in me. If I fully understood what it means for the one who has the ‘fullness of God’ dwelling in him to then dwell within me, life should be much more simple. How can I not fully comprehend that ‘Christ in me’ is not something to play at or ignore or take notice of when I feel up to it.
This one fact should humble me, should energize me, should give me confidence & security & peace. Yet, here I am being double minded. Instead of swimming in the waters of faith and trust in Christ, I keep one foot on the shore of the world. I’m too afraid to really step out into the water fully. It seems wild and dangerous and unknown. And that it is to be sure. Life with Christ is never going to be like living in a bubble without a care in the world. He is intent on changing me, challenging my preconceptions, and teaching me to more fully trust him.
I truly want to better understand this mystery. I want to better appreciate the cost that Jesus paid to make this mystery available to me. I want to better see the One that is dwelling within me. I want to better appreciate and care for this relationship. I want our relationship to be strengthened each and every day such that I trust him implicitly in all things. That the world will fade away and my eyes will only see Jesus. The I will embrace and cling to the one who loves me and gave himself for me.
Journal Entry // January 03, 2021